Monday, February 13, 2012

From My Heart to Yours

"....mere words cannot describe the feelings I experienced when I read the responses to the post about my Mom's death.  I've said this before but it still continues to amaze me that a group of virtual buddies, here on blogspot, can actually come to care about each other just by reading about one another's life-on-blog!  I only wish that I could meet all of you to give hugs and thanks in-person, those people who commented publicly and those who sent private emails, all of you are so wonderful and all of you had so many kind, warm and comforting words for me and I give thanks to each and every one of you. 

I am still feeling the sudden and devastating loss of my best friend, my Mom and although I continue to hear that it will get better, it will take time, this too shall pass, etc., etc., etc., it just doesn't feel that way right now.  My solace comes from spending time with my dogs and my horse and one or two close family members and friends.  I don't mind feeling the grief as I know it's a natural process but envisioning the idea that I will never again see my Mom or talk with her is extremely hard to accept.

I will close for now and will return with more of "The Adventures of Cathy & Valie" in the near future."

4 comments:

allhorsestuff said...

You keep resting in the memories and giving yourself all the time ...I truly you have hope to see your mom in the future, away from this worldly place.

Sending much love and hugs to you...the cats dogs and horses, AND I am sure other critters too, always, always take our pains, troubles and cares someplace so far away from the heart and mind...it is truly lovely and a GIFT!
Xo KK

allhorsestuff said...

Just me again Cath,
Praying for your heart's peace....through and around the pain~
;)
KK

Emme said...

Just found your blog today. I was so vert touched my your words and just wanted to say; hold on, hold out, and hold a friendly hand. Never run from the tears, and embrace any moment of joy and laughter as the gifts they are from your mother. Life is precious, as are your memories. You are because she was.
Much love.....

Allison said...

I've been wondering how you are doing. Don't worry: give yourself time...it's always longer than others would think. :-) Sudden loss shock can only just begin to lift at 6 months: I've heard some say the 2nd year is harder then the 1st, because we spend so much of the 1st year in shock (a kind of protective coating). I know animals are SUCH healers. <3 XO Hang in there! I think of you often. One step, one day at a time.